Happy Friday

I think I think too much

A bit fussy.
Crowded with feelings.
Searching for distractions.
Looking for a flood.
Leaves much to be desired.
I write until I forget I am writing.

-B

Tell Them

Trying to forget someone you loved is like trying to remember someone you never knew.
Everyone runs away from what they don't understand.If you don’t go after what you want, you’ll never get it. If you don’t ask, the answer is always no. If you don’t step forward, you’re always in the same place. I have no problem letting someone know how I feel. Although, they might.

Follow Your Heart

Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up: if a boy punches you he likes you, never try to trim your own bangs, and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. every movie we see, every story we’re told implores us to wait for it: the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. but sometimes we’re so focused on finding our happy ending we don’t learn how to read the signs. how to tell the ones who want us from the ones who don’t, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. and maybe a happy ending doesn’t include a guy, maybe it’s you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. maybe the happy ending is just moving on. or maybe the happy ending is this: knowing after all the unreturned phone calls and broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment… you never gave up hope.

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and it won't be long til I let you go...

“ Freedom (n.): To ask nothing. To expect nothing. To depend on nothing.
— Ayn Rand

My Favorite

Ta-Da

* Eat more cake.
* Dream. Believe. Wish on everything.
* Own at least 1 pair of wings.
* Dance - especially with your friends. Even if you don't think you can dance.
* Live in the moment. See today as a pop-up book.
* Be thankful for what has been, what is, and what is to come.
* Read lots and lots of books.
* Bloom where you are planted.
* Let yourself write. It doesn't have to be perfect.
* Think good thoughts.
* Be inspired.
* Surround yourself with things and people you love.
* Listen to sad music every once in awhile.
* Pray and listen.
* Get plenty of sunshine. Don't forget the sunblock.
* Go outside your comfort zone.
* Exercise.
* Have faith.
* Lend a helping hand.
* Use your talents.
* Remember that happiness comes and goes, but joy is from the heart.
* Don't be afraid to ask for help.

Warning, Beware, Be careful

You cannot go back in time, even if you wish it with every fiber of your being, your heart and soul, even if you think about it every day. Trust me. I know.

Oh, Monday

Happy Friday

SRSLY

My new art has piled up.

Once you have been set afire
why do anything
but create beauty
isolate
and let it be the work
the hands
your hands
that do not yield
because
the rest is talk
the rest is fake
the rest is drunks
social
experiments
the work
sets
me free.

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Time Machine

I want to be unforgettable
trying to win space in your heart
staying close from over here
I can hold this
lets forget everything
make me feel brand new
we lost our way it seems
I still feel you
you're here when gone
I'm sorry if I pushed too hard
I get crazy
I talk too much
just want to let this out
I don't give myself away easily
but this time
I am not afraid to hurt
I am running towards the flame
so we can tell our story one day
I can feel the excitement
like I am laughing
time will mend what you tore
your silence allowed me to hear
this


-B

I always know my way home.

Happy Friday

Swollen Heart

this is a rare affinity
i miss you dearly
because i said so
my feelings pour over my words
so they can sink into your heart
it has been a sweet luxury to know you
i wait
patiently holding still
no distractions no interruptions
i know you are not well
i am letting time carry the weight
it is what you need to let your heart surface again
you could never be a ghost
your memory floats in possibilty
your hands promised
you can't lose your soulmate to a situation
the feeling of connection is actual
i have traveled down the hard road you are on
it made me different in every way
knowingly thought out days
i made time
time couldn't make me
i feel your heart crying out
it wants me near but you are still alone
my only request is for you to return
no matter what shape i will recognise you
the world keeps a corner open for us
i put a comfortable chair there so i can sit and wait
i just want to see you smile
and that would be enough
part of who we are is each other
my trust goes unnoticed

until then...
-B

Magic

How can this one organ make so many choices for us? It does not think, it does not calculate, or reason. And yet many of our decisions are based on what our heart is feeling. A squeeze or a flutter. The feeling of your blood pumping quickly from it's center. It can make you walk away or it can convince you to stay. Your heart can pull tears down your face or lifts your lips in a smile. In this one muscle it provides you with passion and pain.
It can make you
sick,
sore, or
broken.
It can make you
soft,
light, or
warm
Wild hearted or faint of heart.

The heart has reasons which the reason cannot understand. ~Blaise Plascal

True

SAGITTARIUS - The Happy-Go-Lucky One (Nov 22 - Dec 21)Good-natured optimist. Doesn't want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome). Indulges self. Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling. Social and outgoing. Doesn't like responsibilities. Often fantasizes. Impatient. Fun to be around. Having lots of friends. Flirtatious. Doesn't like rules. Sometimes hypocritical. Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes. Doesn't like being doubted. Beautiful inside and out.

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amazing

Dear So and So,

I can feel you thinking of me. I want to tell you that I know and admit that I feel the same. But I can't. Not yet.That’s why love is madness. It’s too easy to lose your mind when you lose your heart.
It's no coincidence. I play that song around you so maybe you'll listen to the lyrics and know how I feel. And,you need everything you know.
You dreamed me one night. Now I'm dreaming you back.
I wish you were here right now. Every now.

Rapidity

don't want to look away
everything is shining as it happens
i have the stubbornness to stay happy
not believing that once it is here
that i should fear the loss
this world is ruthless
but my smile stays on
i am raw
intimate
inside the flame
flowing with the abundant smoke
never wanted to play it safe
become anemic or grey
i dare myself everyday to be honest
every place is looking at me
but i know i can change without any attention
my eyes and ears are first
i can be absent or present
my ideas come like the ocean in the early morning
i gather and then set them free
i never rely on the outcome
opinions can be dangerous
this energy spreads like my paints
like a tough kiss
i take my time and feel the intensity
running through my veins
like a blast of nicotine
stimulated by awareness
sparing no expense
throwing away any hesitation
i pause
this is the gift
what is given can never be taken away

-B

Ta-da

I couldn't convince you that the pink you see is the same pink that I see. But maybe that's how lovers know they're meant to love; they see the same pink. And they both know it.